Cough Cough

I have a confession to make.  I know I'm committing blogger suicide right now.  Ok, not really, but I know anyone who reads this and doesn't know me is probably going to be all "for real? are you an idiot?"  To that I answer, "yes, yes I am."  Ok, I don't actually concede to being an idiot... ahhh... guess I'll just come right out and say it.  No use beating around the bush any longer...

I'm a smoker! *ducks*

No worries, I am well aware of the implications smoking has on my life.  For one, being overweight is bad enough, but being an overweight smoker of delicious Camel Lights is truly a death sentence.  Add in the pulmonary embolisms I had last year and that's like just stab me in the lung or something.  Actually the smoking didn't have anything to do with the PEs... I have a genetic mutation that causes my blood to be super thick... but everyone at the hospital sure had a field day ripping me a new asshole because I was smoking while on birth control.  Hello, do I look 35?  Yeah, I watch the commercials... at the time I wasn't even 25 and had been off and on birth control since I was 18ish because of the damn problems involving my ovaries (now ovary). Actually here was the triple crown reasoning for the PEs a la Suburban Hospital-- 1. smoker  2. birth control  3. fat
Nevermind the fact that the doctor told me to my face that he was going to skip all other necessary blood work to determine why I got the clots because he was satisfied with his own deductive reasoning. 

Don't judge me!  I'm a very nice girl.  I really love smoking cigarettes, they've been there for me through all my hard times.  Unfortunately, they're only going to lead to more hard times.  I didn't know this whole post would turn into a ranting about my... ::shudder:: ...addiction.

I wish I was addicted to cleaning the house.  Then I'd be a freak and probably wouldn't ever leave.  At least smoking is mobile!  Yeah, I'm going to shut up now, haha.

There were some fat camp-related things I wanted to talk about, but I'll just wait til next post.

Do you have an addiction that people shun you for?