Thin and Fit, Fast and Easy

I believe this is a title of one of the THOUSANDS of weight-loss/fitness books I was looking at when I was in Borders last week.  No wonder people are still fat and obesity is an epidemic or is it a pandemic?  Remind me to look those two words up later.  Anywho, there is nothing FAST nor EASY about losing weight (if you're moderate-morbidly obese anyway).  And I only speak on behalf of obese people because, quite frankly, I am one.  Though I still know all of our circumstances are different as well.  Some of us probably do sit on our asses all day eating bonbons and whatever else it is we can shovel into our gullet.  However, I'm guessing the majority of "obese" persons, like myself, just are.

I've been chubby my entire life despite the greater part of my young life being insanely active-- sports, band, etc.  I name band as being active because I played drums... try hauling around a snare drum from age 9-13.  So what about all the candy and cookies i ate?  Negative.  I'm the kid who ate some Halloween candy the first couple days then was done... it got thrown out 2 months later... pretty much the same with any other holiday.  Sweets weren't my thing and they still aren't though I get a craving every now and then.  My mom would pack my lunch and sometimes I would have a couple Chips Ahoy or something, but nothing crazy.  We weren't denied sweet things in my household, they weren't banned, we just didn't care.  My mom had a crazy sweet tooth, but she was 5'9" and 140lbs, so sure, go for it lol.

I've tried everything imaginable.  My two best attempts at losing weight were the times I took speed and had a personal trainer.  Ok, I didn't really take speed speed, but it kinda was only in prescription form. I've attempted South Beach (which lasted two days my freshman year of college because I ended up not eating anything and almost passed out as I burst into my friend's room one night because I knew she had food), low carb, Weight Watchers, Medifast, and various diets I made up.  I've not eaten, but not to a point where it was a problem because I do like food a little more than completely cutting it out allows lol.  The thing I have had to come to terms with is that if I want to lose weight it's not going to be fast nor is it going to be easy.  In fact, it's going to take quite a bit of time (I'm giving myself 2-3 years to get to where I want/need to be) and discipline (which I totally fail at).  This is definitely a work in progress because I still want to wake up tomorrow morning 20 pounds lighter than the night before.  It's hard for me to let go of the fact that this is going to really take as much dedication as my schoolwork (minus the whole procrastination thing).  My goal is to not look like the Goodyear blimp come my next graduation (high school and undergrad made for horrendous photos).  To help me get there I recently signed up for Weight Watchers because it's at work and the meetings take place in my building (super convenient for a lazy ass like myself).  I started last week and the first weigh-in is tomorrow.  I did not do very well as far as my points go this past weekend... mainly because I got hammered and ate almost an entire pizza to myself at the bar (not cute). 

So while I'm not in school, you will have to hear about my battle with my metabolism.