I blinked and 2010 was out the door skipping down the sidewalk. Tucked in its suitcases (I'm assuming) were the 10 pounds I managed to lose and keep off since August, the A- and B grades that ruined my pristine 4.0 average in GRAD school (yeah I knew it wouldn't last long either), the near-death experience with the PEs, bad choices, good choices, indifference, crazy people, attempts to better myself along with attempts at self-sabotage. Heartache-- thank God that left with the crazy people. I don't really know what else I accomplished last year-- aside from the few week breaks here and there, I was in school all year long; I worked really hard and I did well. I have a 3.8something to show for that. Love will not be leaving, because I have yet to find it-- maybe 2011 will bring someone who loves me for me, wouldn't that be nice? Perhaps I'll learn to love myself first.
What do I want from 2011?
I want to get all A's in the rest of my classes.
I want to stay sane through the Spring semester because I will be full time.
I want to develop self-discipline so that I produce the best work possible.
I want to develop self-discipline to create a healthy routine for myself.
I want to stop smoking.
I want the chronic pain to go away.
I want to go to Kosovo and visit my friend.
I do not want to be on coumadin for the rest of my life, though I probably will have to be.
I do not want to be the Michelin Man at my graduation in the Fall.
For an extreme goal I want to be happy and not think about death/dying.
Hopes for others: I hope my brother finds happiness even though he thinks he never will, and I hope my dad meets a nice lady to hang out with ;)
I normally call bullshit on new year's resolutions, which is why I just cut to the chase-- this is what I want and hope for. Whether or not any of it happens, is up to me and the higher power. I might also implore my mom a little, maybe my sister.
1 comment:
Awww sweetie pie. I think setting healthy goals are awesome. Little goals at a time! 10 pounds down? WOOOOT! :-) What worked for me was NOT looking at the big number but at what I could do each day (and ONLY weighing myself once a week at the same time... like every Friday morning). You make the choices every day, and every choice is a time for improvement. You can do it.
And also... straight A's? In grad school? Um, you're a smartypants. Hugs.
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